Mean girl

I am mean.

I laughed with them. I laughed at someone today.

I felt guilt and shame. I shouldn't have laughed. He must be going on some battles that neither of us are aware.

Heart check:

I hate myself for adding damage to the person but more than that, I can't believe I'm such a mean person.
Pride enters.
How can I be mean when I think I'm not? I'm not mean, am I?

I desperately need the grace of God. I'm such a sinner and nothing near to being good.

I'm humbled.

Sorry.