savior complex befriends guilt

Today a close friend of mine messaged me asking if we could meet tonight at 9pm; I read it 8:30pm. I want to but the problem is I have duty at 11pm and my parents wouldn't allow me. I don't know why but my instinct told me she's not ok because she's so eager to meet up with me. I sent her couple of sms but I got no reply from her.

I'm having this desire to go right to her 'cause I think she's not ok and I have to be there for her; that's savior complex raging inside me. Another is guilt. I should have read her message earlier. These two battle inside me. It's an icky feeling inside knowing that both are no good and relied on self.



And so I load my number and called her. She has something to share but she sounded..happy hahaha

The 6th Weasley and his Olympic torch

Red-haired Ron Weasley aka Rupert Grint made his name not only in Hogwarts but also in 2012 Olympics as he carried the Olympic Torch at Middlesex University London last Wednesday. 

Another point for Gryffindor!

I've always liked Ronald Weasley since the first movie and even when I read the first book. I watched the film first before reading the book. And the first scene where he appeared in, I knew then and there that he would be my most liked character in Harry Potter.
The book gave a more in-depth description of Ron. He's a Weasley, an old wizarding family with 8 red-haired members, trying to make both ends meet. Ron is the youngest among his top-rated brothers; the 6th child in the family.Everyone expects him to do well as his brothers and anything he'll achieve is no big deal because his brothers did it first or even better. I can sense that he feels second best the way he narrated his life to Harry on the train. Ron got the old and used things of his brothers - Bill's old robes, Charlie's old wand, Percy's old rat - even his grandpa's chess set.

Ron's set was very old and battered. Like everything else he owned, it had once belonged to someone else in the family - in this case, his grandfather  - Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone Chapter 12

He's not also the popular type like his twin brothers Fred and George. On the train to Hogwarts, he didn't have anyone to sit with except Harry who was expected to be alone since Hogwarts and magic were all new to him. Even in the story, he played the supporting role but like other bestfriend-of-the-hero, he played a big part. Harry wouldn't be harry without Ron (and Hermione).

 

Why Ron became my most liked HP character? Prolly because I can relate to him and his issues haha. He's more of a supporter and he has a knack for adventure! And he can be very dense (so me hahaha).  I'm excited to know how he'll deal with his issues.

As for me, God's dealing with it. God constantly reminds me everyday that I am not what people make me feel I am; the truth is, I am His beloved and I am His :)


Enough said for now..I've only read the 1st book :)

the muse...

 I'm Wendy and I wear eye glasses. I like long walks with ear phones plugged in. I like yellow but barely have yellow things in my possession. I am currently a novice nurse in a psychiatric institution. I am basically me, fearfully and wonderfully made by God, handcrafted by Him.
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